Today I talked to a guy on the phone. Maybe not note worthy to many people but to me it made my day.
I don't foresee us dating. I'm really not interested. But it was nice to talk to someone who was wanting to talk to me for me. Because he liked my art work. Because he thought my journal was funny. He wanted to talk to me for me.
And not who I was friend's with.
Amazing but true.
posted by Kelly @ 12:34 AM
Here lately, I can't get "Something's Missing" by John Mayer out of my head. It's just how I feel; "And I don't know what it is."
Anyway, this was an outro from a show that ellablue2 on MSM transcribed:
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Something's Missing outro from March 26, 2004:
"...something’s missing and I don’t know how I’m ever gonna fix it, something’s always missing and I don’t know how I’m ever gonna change. The man you see before you is only held together by promises and a lot of scotch tape. I’m gonna change, oh I know I’ve gotta change, change. I‘m a ? in a chapter book and I know all it’s gonna take is one look to change it, change it all.
I’m just a boy with a broken phone, too many messages that I wrote, not enough bottles to sail them all. Got a broken mast, reading messages past, I play games with the stars in my free time. Singing someday, someone’s gonna save me, though I don’t know who it is, no I don’t know who it is.
Someone asked me last night, they said, 'How is your love life?' I said 'poor to fair.' I’m not sad, I’m just alone, that’s not lonely, it’s just...I don’t really have to use the phone.
It’s gonna be fine, but you know. You know how you find yourself at the end of something hanging around at the end, like a vacation that you go on with 8 other friends, they all left and you’re the last person to catch your flight. It’s kind of what it feels like.
I’m gonna get wrapped up, I can tell. Someone is gonna screw my life up COMPLETELY. Let me tell you something, it’s wonderful to have your life screwed up by someone who’s not even right for you, it’s beautiful. Your friends are just supposed to watch it happen and not do anything. It would be lovely to be messed up.
I’ll tell you something. Every time you walk by a beautiful man or a beautiful woman, you tell yourself, god, that could have been the most wonderful thing in the world I just walked past. But never do you tell yourself, and probably in some cases fairly, say to yourself, that person would have FUCKED ME UP FOR A YEAR AND A HALF. That’s what’s missing. That’s what’s missing. (singing): Misery, misery, that’s what's missing -- misery, misery…
posted by Kelly @ 12:10 PM
Things to ponder:
* John is playing Herbie Hancock shows on June 8th and 9th. So far he is off the 10th. His next play date is the 11th in Memphis. Could there be a secret blues show in Memphis? Hmmmmmmm.
* DRH is playing City Stages a week later. I wonder if there could be a possible John sit in.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
posted by Kelly @ 10:07 PM
HoustonChronicle.com - Horoscope: "SCORPIO (Oct. 24-Nov. 21). To the rest of the world, yours is a perfect relationship. If only you were as confident in it. Despite your insecurities, your partner is with you for all the right reasons, love being first on a long list. "
So maybe it's not referencing a "romantical relationship" but I guess it could be applied to a friendship.
Every relationship, regardless of type, goes through a rough spell. But dwelling on the problem does not solve it. So that's finished. That conversation's over. That thought is bound and casted away. Along with the insecure side effect.
posted by Kelly @ 9:13 PM
I'm tired.
I'm tired of over analyzing every detail of every conversation, confrontation and situation. I'm tired of weighing every word, glance, action, and tone. I'm tired of worrying about relationships that were stable. I'm tired of replaying every conversation and viewing it from different angles. I'm tired of dreading going to work when I use to not mind it.
posted by Kelly @ 6:33 PM
* People who speak for their kids, have blogs for their kids, and basically live through their kids. I have never shot a child out of my ass so I may just be a selfish bitch. But for the love of pete get a life!
posted by Kelly @ 11:47 PM
The following people should be shot:
* People who talk on their cell phones while in the check out lane. These people are always food stamp card wielding people. They don't have enough money to buy their child food because the prepaid track phone is hella important!
* Anyone who wears a mullet other than Bono. Especially people who try to stylize the mullet. Also, anyone who insist that "Feathered back bangs" are the way to go.
* These MySpace losers with these dramatic self portraits. Everyone is trying to look so damn mysterious. Hard to be mysterious when every profile is a personal ad (except for mine... really)
* Booby girls. I'm sure they have a purpose. I mean, with all that damn giggiling about what "He said, she said, I said, Bubba said," it must be important. The world would end if Biffy and Miffy didn't make a Wal-Mart run for that much needed eyeliner.
* People who wear tampons AND pads. What's the point? Not only is something not human shoved up you, you still wear a damn pad. Just wear the pad!
* Grown men that buy Yu Gi Oh! cards. If that doesn't scream pedophile I don't know what does.
* People who don't grasp the fact that I don't like them. So what my friend thinks you're the greatest thing since spreadable cheese. It doesn't mean I like you. Come to find out not everyone gets along. Shocking but true. Please except this and move on.
* People who talk to me solely to get closer to my friend. I started thinking about this one guy who I thought was cool and use to talk to me alot until he started talking to her. Then, he never talked to me. Turns out he stalks her now. Guess I didn't loose after all.
* Credit card companies. What part of a ten thousand dollar limit for a student who barely makes ten thousand dollars a year makes sense?
* People who constantly diet and try to convince me I should. These people complain about how little they can eat then say, "You should go on it. It's great." What?
This blog will so be updated because this list will continue to expand.
posted by Kelly @ 11:39 PM
I love the fact that I've known what is due next Monday since January. So when I am doing the bulk of my work? Right now before I go to work.
I love/hate me.
posted by Kelly @ 11:15 AM
My ears hurt from these damn ear buds. That and I'm wanting to jump up and down to Bigger than my Body but I do believe the "Know it alls who hate know it alls" would look at me odd.
OH well
posted by Kelly @ 12:54 PM
Today is the last week before portfolios are due. Therefore all of the slackers are in here trying to do a semesters worth of work in a week. And by "slackers" I mean the people around me, not me. No I'm not a "slacker" per se. I just took many "culture enrichment trips" during the year.
And by culture enrichment I mean I skipped class many many many times.
So, anyway, I'm in here listening to a "know it all" complain about know it alls. It's living irony. Some people love to hear themselves talk. I, on the other hand, do not want to hear them. I will not be an audience! So I break out the handy dandy iPod. I'm listening to John Mayer at Louisville. Fucking brilliant man.
One month till Memphis!
posted by Kelly @ 12:14 PM
Because I can't wait to find out what's wrong with me so I can say this is the way I use to be - John Mayer
Oh, no. You don't get off that easy, you lazy bastard. If you really want to know me, kick back and read.
